This is it

I'm finally back on track. It was a bumpy week to get back - I had a few mental setbacks - "Maybe I can try something else." "If I work out, I can eat more normally now." "Maybe I should be happy where I am." "Are you really going to lose 100 more lbs.?" But I told my inner doubter to shut up and that I AM going to reach my goal this time. I AM going to find a way to make this work despite my emotional trips. And I AM going to start working out more. I've now officially LOST all the weight gained on the trip - I'm back down to 247.4 (down 9.2 since 4/17) & that's great! Yesterday I got back on my treadmill and I started interval training - walk 1.5 min then jog 1 min - combined with a 5 min warm up and cool down, it comes to 30 min. and 8 min. of jogging. Thought I might die, but I succeeded and finished the whole thing. Half way through my inner doubter started up, "That's good enough - it's more than what you normally do - don't hurt yourself first day out - you aren't dressed to be this sweaty, maybe buy the right stuff and try again." Every excuse in the book to quit! I literally had to YELL "Don't stop Wendy - Finish this!!!" I was hoping no one was home. Sometimes you have to be louder than your inner doubter - that stupid voice has so much power, if we let it. But, no, I'm back in control now for a while and I will reach my next goal - 199 lbs. Date to goal is 8/10. WOOOOHOOOO! Here we go!!